oh wait im just now reading the title.....the only reason i wasnt acting the same was bc sometimes when i have feelings for someone i can tend to hide it...i never really caught onto the hints that girls gave and thats one of the reasons i never really had a gf because i was always scared on what if they said no because everytime i did ask them out they would just tell me no and call me ugly.thats where i started calling myself ugly because everyone else did the same and when i was your age star i was also cutting and i told myself love is useless when people dont want it. so i was f**ked up for about a year trying to smile my best so no one felt like i was empty inside. my heart went cold and i never really cared for anyone. when i started showing that i was sad the girls tried asking me out and i told them "why the f**k would i need your love when you threw it away when i tried to give it to you" because these were the same girls i asked out and they said no.....and with all the stuff going around with bullying just made me feel more f**ked up. so yeah i tended to run away from peoples love and tried to hide mine from them. it's just when you said you liked me i thought it was time for a change and someone like you could take the pain away and it really does help. you help a lot star dont forget that without you i would be in my garage with a chair and some rope. and trading you in for someone else is like giving 100 dollars for a nickel
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0 ups, 4y
so dont think it was because i didnt like you back