when i was in like pre school-1st grade i had no friends lmfao and i used to have a dog but we had to get rid of him so i would walk around the playground, alone, and pretend i had a mini, invisible version of my dog and i would play with him instead of by myself. his name was tiger and he was my best friend, i never felt alone pretending i was with him all the time, we had to give him away due to an incident where he tried to kill 3 year old me, i would walk him around on a red leash and help him up the playground steps and all, he could even fit in my pocket, (totally not crying while typing this) throughout the day he'd stay in my desk and travel everywhere by pocket, i was the only one who could see him and ive never told anyone until now out of embarrassment. i also had a thing like this for my cats in 2nd-3rd grade, one died and the other was given away due to my moms allergies, i grew up with them and always missed them so i decided to have mini versions of all my pets and those were my only friends ever at school considering i was the one kid no one liked. in that time i even went to build a bear to make stuffed animal versions of them and i still have them to this day. this all went on from my first years of pre school to 4th grade but just because i had friends in 4th didn't mean things got better. no no, in 4th i got with the wrong group of people and lost all of my innocence, yes, i used to have innocence, they ended up causing lots of drama and starting my self harm career which has continued to present day. many traumatic things happened in 4th grade and then proceeded to happen until now and still happen when im finally in a good mood. TvT
