A GIRL WHO IS USED TO BEING ON HER OWN WILL BE UNLIKE ANY OTHER GIRL WHO YOU WILL EVER LOVE. THAT MUCH IS GUARANTEED. SHE’LL BE THE TOUGHEST NUT TO CRACK AND HER WALLS WILL BE BUILT UP THE HIGHEST.
BECAUSE FOR SO LONG THEY WERE JUST THAT: HER WALLS. THEY’RE A PART OF WORLD THAT SHE BUILT ENTIRELY ON HER OWN, AND WHILE YES THEY ARE IN ONE PART PROTECTION, THEY’RE ALSO JUST AS MUCH A SOURCE OF HER IDENTITY. THEY’RE THE ENCOMPASSING SHELL OF A PLACE SHE MADE, A LIFE SHE BUILT, A WORLD THAT BELONGS TO NOBODY BUT HER. AND WHILE IT PROTECTS HER, MAINTAINS HER, AND KEEPS HER SAFE, IT’S ALSO SIMPLY, JUST WHAT SHE KNOWS.
SO FINDING SPACE FOR SOMEONE ELSE IS GOING TO BE HARD FOR HER, IT’S GOING TO BE A CHALLENGE. SEE, THE TRUTH ABOUT BEING ON YOUR OWN IS THAT AFTER A WHILE, BEING ON YOUR OWN BECOMES YOUR COMFORT, BECOMES YOUR SAFE SPACE. THERE’S A RELIABILITY IN ANSWERING TO ONLY YOURSELF, TO ONLY MINDING YOURSELF, TO ONLY WORRYING ABOUT YOURSELF. AND THOUGH AT TIMES IT CAN BE LONELY, IT’S A SOFTER LONELY. IT’S A LONELINESS THAT EVENTUALLY BECOMES FAMILIAR AND ALMOST BEAUTIFUL.
SO WHEN SOMEONE ELSE COMES IN, AND SHAKES UP THAT WORLD AND THAT LONELINESS, IT’S JARRING.
IT’S A SHAKE UP NOT ONLY TO HER WORLD, BUT TO HER ROUTINE, BUT TO WHAT SHE KNOWS. BE READY TO SCALE THE WALLS SHE’S BUILT AROUND HERSELF, AND HER HEART, AND BE READY TO NEVER WORRY ABOUT WHAT’S GOING ON OUTSIDE OF THEM.
KENDRA SYRDAL
