You know your username right? There is this character also named Ray, he was suicidal too. Thought killing himself was the right choice, but his friend caught him trying to end it all and saved him. In the latest part of the show he explains that he’s happy he lived, and he regrets trying to kill himself. To me, he’s the symbol of change. I’ve been down the same path not very long ago, and I saw him trying to end it, then being happy he didn’t, and to me, that’s enough proof that things DO change, and they DO get better. I’m not there yet, but hopefully we can make it together, and live on. Stay alive.