ON THE OUTSIDE I'M SMILING, BUT ON THE INSIDE I'M CRYING, I FEEL LIKE DYING, TO IMPRESS YOU ALL I'M TRYING, HALF OF YOU THINK I SHOULD BE DYING AND TO HELP YOU I'M TRYING. I'M TRYING. AND IF THAT'S NOT ENOUGH I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS, ALL THIS STRESS I DEAL WITH AND YET NO ONE IS HELPING WHEN I NEED IT. NO ONE. AND IF TO SHOW THAT I'M WORTHY I MUST SUFFER THEN I WILL DO WHAT I HAVE TO TO BE ABLE TO HAVE SOMEONE IN MY LIFE I CAN TRUST. YET I FEEL LIKE RUST. BROKEN AND FORGOTTEN AND LEFT TO BECOME DUST.