now i know. now i know ot to try... now i know not to help... know i know not to talk to people.. now i know not to force happiness.. because i forced happiness, my friends sent me to the counselors office. i had told them i was fine and just tired... literally everyone at school says i need help... even my gf... because of my gf.. i will be going to therapy... not for any bad reason, they have just convinced me to go. i agree.. i need it; i thank you all for the support and sorry for pissing people off...