I do NOT advocate for harm to come to you. You are a human being and deserve to be happy.
But you need help and should seek it. No one is perfect and this is your imperfection. Sometimes being human is refusing to indulge the impulses of our lower nature whatever they may be. Pedophiles all say they have never harmed a child, even when they have. I can say this as someone who was abused. If you have not harmed a child, then don't. Ever.
Help should be made available to individual seeking help, but Pedophiles, as a class, should not be under any illusion that ACTING on their impulse is acceptable in any way.