Do you just feel queasy talking to someone you *just* had a 3 year fight with- and don't want to tell them how you don't like the tension and how them talks about you, but you don't cause you want them to be happy? Like, how they still acts so direct to you and it hurts you, but you gotta take the consequences? Like it hurts remembering the past and still keeping in contact just makes it worse? I just want this person to be really happy with their life, but I feel like I can't escape my past. I can't run away, and you sit waiting for them to respond to you even if it's so stupid? It's like.. I can't let go of a former relationship.