I've tried that. I have, but I come back because of you. Not just you, but everybody else. Ive been feeling depressed for about 2 years. I keep telling myself I am happy, and sometime I believe it. But every night, I remember that I'm nowhere close. I dont want to lose any of you. You are all kind, creative, amazing people. You cant take a break from friends, ya know?...I just dont know if I am even ok. I feel like I am, but then I feel like I am not. I am literally a moving seesaw of emotion. I want it to be balanced. I dont want it to be swaying all over. I feel like as long as I am with the people I care about, I will be happy. And I feel like its working. I have been trying to deal with it myself., and I think its been working, but still. Sorry if I am worrying you, Im just down. Heh..this was a long sentence