I know I don’t write here a lot but I have to get this out.. Me and Rose had a fight today, there were some people stealing from a ship and the other knights turned them in. I was the ONLY one who didn’t want to. Today Rose said I wasn’t a thief, that’s not true. When we were passing that checkpoint I sure felt like one. I was a pickpocket for almost as long as I can remember. That is part of who I am, and I can remember how people looked at me. People never ask why someone steals, they don’t consider that maybe they have a good reason. They only see some heartless person out to steal their things. I guess I thought maybe Rose wasn’t like that, that she could maybe see the why. But I guess I was wrong. I stole because if I didn’t I would starve. When someone catches me cutting their purse or slipping a coin out of their pocket they don’t see a poor girl trying to survive, they see some selfish lazy vermin. While I didn’t talk to the other thieves I saw, I learned about them. There was one man I saw who would steal from homes, I followed him and found out his wife was sick, he worked hard at a job and still had to steal. The guards arrested him, they didn’t ask why he stole. I saw other people who stole because they had to be arrested for what they did, people who wouldn’t have to steal if they had helped. If someone had seen me lying on the ground in the rain and decided to help me, then I wouldn’t have to steal. I didn’t want to steal at first, but when people can see you are suffering for days on end you get angry, if nobody helps you you have to help yourself. People don’t steal for fun, I’ve never seen someone steal for fun. And then she said I couldn’t be mad at her, that I couldn’t be mad that even though she knew my past she still wanted to turn them in.

She thinks that her vote was what mattered, as if I wouldn’t be angry if they hadn’t been turned in. What made me angry is that she didn’t ask why they stole, she just assumed they stole for fun. I wonder how many people assumed I stole for fun. And that part about Jane not needing to steal to survive, maybe she didn’t but her crew did, and she helped them. She stole to help her crew. People don’t just steal to survive, they steal to help the people they care about survive. I agree that it is bad that innocent people have been stolen from, but I just wish people would look at thieves and see more than thieves. I wish people would see why people were where thieves. If you can fix the fact that hundreds of people walked past a young girl like me sleeping in the rain without a care in the world, if you could help people before they are forced to help themselves. Maybe there would be less thieves.