Two songs that describe me perfectly

ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD, MY MAMA TOLD ME GO MAKE YOURSELF SOME FRIENDS OR YOU'LL BE LONELY ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD IT WAS A BIG BIG WORLD, BUT WE THOUGHT WE WERE BIGGER PUSHING EACH OTHER TO THE LIMITS, WE WERE LEARNING QUICKER BY 11 SMOKING HERB AND DRINKING BURNING LIQUOR NEVER RICH SO WE WERE OUT TO MAKE THAT STEADY FIGURE ONCE I WAS 11 YEARS OLD, MY DADDY TOLD ME GO GET YOURSELF A WIFE OR YOU'LL BE LONELY ONCE I WAS 11 YEARS OLD I ALWAYS HAD THAT DREAM LIKE MY DADDY BEFORE ME SO I STARTED WRITING SONGS, I STARTED WRITING STORIES SOMETHING ABOUT THE GLORY, JUST ALWAYS SEEMED TO BORE ME 'CAUSE ONLY THOSE I REALLY LOVE WILL EVER REALLY KNOW ME ONCE I WAS 20 YEARS OLD, MY STORY GOT TOLD BEFORE THE MORNING SUN, WHEN LIFE WAS LONELY ONCE I WAS 20 YEARS OLD (LUKAS GRAHAM) I ONLY SEE MY GOALS, I DON'T BELIEVE IN FAILURE 'CAUSE I KNOW THE SMALLEST VOICES, THEY CAN MAKE IT MAJOR I GOT MY BOYS WITH ME ATLEAST THOSE IN FAVOR AND IF WE DON'T MEET BEFORE I LEAVE, I HOPE I'LL SEE YOU LATER ONCE I WAS 20 YEARS OLD, MY STORY GOT TOLD I WAS WRITING 'BOUT EVERYTHING, I SAW BEFORE ME ONCE I WAS 20 YEARS OLD SOON WE'LL BE 30 YEARS OLD, OUR SONGS HAVE BEEN SOLD WE'VE TRAVELED AROUND THE WORLD AND WE'RE STILL ROAMING SOON WE'LL BE 30 YEARS OLD I'M STILL LEARNING ABOUT LIFE MY WOMAN BROUGHT CHILDREN FOR ME SO I CAN SING THEM ALL MY SONGS AND I CAN TELL THEM STORIES MOST OF MY BOYS ARE WITH ME SOME ARE STILL OUT SEEKING GLORY AND SOME I HAD TO LEAVE BEHIND MY BROTHER I'M STILL SORRY SOON I'LL BE 60 YEARS OLD, MY DADDY GOT 61 REMEMBER LIFE AND THEN YOUR LIFE BECOMES A BETTER ONE I MADE THE MAN SO HAPPY WHEN I WROTE A LETTER ONCE I HOPE MY CHILDREN COME AND VISIT, ONCE OR TWICE A MONTH SOON I'LL BE 60 YEARS OLD, WILL I THINK THE WORLD IS COLD OR WILL I HAVE A LOT OF CHILDREN WHO CAN WARM ME SOON I'LL BE 60 YEARS OLD SOON I'LL BE 60 YEARS OLD, WILL I THINK THE WORLD IS COLD OR WILL I HAVE A LOT OF CHILDREN WHO CAN HOLD ME SOON I'LL BE 60 YEARS OLD ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD, MY MAMA TOLD ME GO MAKE YOURSELF SOME FRIENDS OR YOU'LL BE LONELY ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD ONCE I WAS SEVEN YEARS OLD; I'M SORRY THAT I DID THIS THE BLOOD IS ON MY HANDS I STARE AT MY REFLECTION I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM PRACTICE MY CONFESSION IN CASE I TAKE THE STAND I'LL SAY I LEARNED MY LESSON I'LL BE A BETTER MAN I'M PACKING UP MY THINGS AND I'M WIPING DOWN THE WALLS I'M RINSING OFF MY CLOTHES AND I'M WALKING THROUGH THE HALLS I DID IT ALL FOR HER SO I FELT NOTHING AT ALL I DON'T KNOW WHAT SHE'LL SAY SO I'LL ASK HER WHEN SHE CALLS WOULD YOU LOVE ME MORE (WOULD YOU LOVE ME MORE) IF I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU? WOULD YOU HOLD MY HAND? (WOULD YOU HOLD MY HAND?) THEY'RE THE SAME ONES THAT I USED WHEN I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU WOULD YOU TURN ME IN (WOULD YOU TURN ME IN) WHEN THEY SAY I'M ON THE LOOSE? WOULD YOU HIDE ME WHEN (WOULD YOU HIDE ME WHEN) MY FACE IS ON THE NEWS? 'CAUSE I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU I HEAR THE SIRENS COMING I SEE THE FLASHING LIGHTS I'M DRIVING THROUGH THE SUBURBS WEARING MY DISGUISE I SHOW UP AT HER DOORSTEP TO LOOK HER IN THE EYES I TELL HER THAT IT'S ME BUT SHE DOESN'T RECOGNISE CAN'T YOU SEE I'M RUNNING? SAID I NEED A PLACE TO HIDE I'VE GOTTA ASK YOU SOMETHING COULD YOU PLEASE LET ME INSIDE? JUST LET ME EXPLAIN NO, I WOULDN'T TELL YOU LIES I KNOW YOU'LL UNDERSTAND IF YOU LET ME STAY THE NIGHT WOULD YOU LOVE ME MORE (WOULD YOU LOVE ME MORE) IF I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU? WOULD YOU HOLD MY HAND? (WOULD YOU HOLD MY HAND?) THEY'RE THE SAME ONES THAT I USED WHEN I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU WOULD YOU TURN ME IN (WOULD YOU TURN ME IN) WHEN THEY SAY I'M ON THE LOOSE? WOULD YOU HIDE ME WHEN (WOULD YOU HIDE ME WHEN) MY FACE IS ON THE NEWS? 'CAUSE I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU YOU HAVE TO UNDERSTAND THAT THE ONE I KILLED IS ME CHANGING WHAT I WAS FOR WHAT YOU WANTED ME TO BE I FOLLOWED YOUR DIRECTION DID EVERYTHING YOU ASKED I HOPE THAT MAKES YOU HAPPY 'CAUSE THERE'S JUST NO TURNING BACK WOULD YOU LOVE ME MORE (WOULD YOU LOVE ME MORE) IF I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU? WOULD YOU HOLD MY HAND? (WOULD YOU HOLD MY HAND?) THEY'RE THE SAME ONES THAT I USED WHEN I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU WOULD YOU TURN ME IN (WOULD YOU TURN ME IN) WHEN THEY SAY I'M ON THE LOOSE? WOULD YOU HIDE ME WHEN (WOULD YOU HIDE ME WHEN) MY FACE IS ON THE NEWS? 'CAUSE I KILLED SOMEONE FOR YOU, YEAH