Hol up right there , first of all you are not a waste of anyone's time . And it's alright it can take a long time to explain who you are , your a special person and its ok if you don't know who you are . I'm sorry to hear that , have you tried telling your parents? And if not you can call the police or 911 . I'm listening to you and i want to know whats wrong so i can help you.I love you for being you , i love you for even being here . I know i sound stupid i'm sorry if i can't help