I pity myself

*sigh*
tell me what happened

*thought

You really though I could go sane for one day?

Your talking to the person who got upset over a f**king Christmas tree the other day

look, i just know you can keep your satiny for one day, i now you can

I could before this shit-
And my irl friend's' is just-

is it my fault?

No, not at all. And thats not true

I swear. You haven't done anything-

then who?

know

I'm not gonna say their name because that would just add to my extreme guilt

ok then

But yeah, that made me that sort of sad where your angry at yourself for not being enough and they just love someone else.

who is the someone else?

Someone they made repeatedly clear they loved more. It just hurt.

its me, isn't it?

NO GO***AMN IT

ill leave you alone now

No.

fine

Good.

ok

I'm in science rn
But I'm not paying any attention

ok

Oof. I stay up even though I don't have an issue!

I usually stay up for no reason-
But I hate it when I stay up over an issue-

I stay up thinking about life and the choices I can make and the possible outcomes. My brain is really complicated for some reason.

Me who would be doing school work right now

same I'm not supposed to be here

Same