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Satan was diagnosed with depression last year.

i just got diagnosed :(

Trust the therapist, trust your meds. Trust me, it gets better once you get help.

the thing is I took the test and my parents don't know...

Why do you not feel like telling your parents, child?

They’d probs be mad at me like “why were you doing stupid things like taking depression tests instead of doing your work”

I don’t really want that I’d just be more of a burden

Tell them about how you feel and how serious it is, and if you might need medical help.
Then a trip to the psychiatrist would do.
Depression is just another illness, it gets treated.

I don't really deserve that
and they don't need to waste any more money on me

1. "Boy" works for everyone, kiddo.
2. Giving up is illegal.
3. Your friends, your choice. But if they want better out of you, stick with them. Not everybody has those kind of friends.

1. it's "boi" not "boy"
2. check the law book it is
3. I have friends that care about me, yes but I can't have them care about me because if they do and I hurt myself it will also hurt them

1. I can't spell it that way because I'm Me.
2. Giving up to try again, is alright. Suicide is illegal.
3. You actually need them. It's going to do better for both you and your friends if you make something of yourself.

1. eh it's fine I don't really care
2. idc if it's illegal I already attempted the crime it's just time to finish it
3. I don't deserve them

and besides, I don't deserve help
I don't really deserve anything

And your friends think you can get better. And they're very correct, if you only tell all this to a therapist.
This. Is. Not. You.
It's. your. illness.

no it is me and i have witnesses
you can ask Narwhal for starters it's all f**king go***amn true

Ok. You can't ever break someone's friendship if they are honest at heart.
If a group 'breaks', then it never really existed and was only looking for an excuse to break.
That's the truth whether you like it or not.

No we were all happy at the beginning it all started with me eavesdropping on my ex-friend's enemy planning some sort of social experiment to turn us into fools. So I gave him ideas ton of horrible ideas and we started bullying that poor kid, he didn't even do anything, he used to be part of our friend group but my ex-friend sorta kicked him out idek what happened, and he became scared of us cause we were bullying him. and eventually that sparked a shit load of drama, and I had started it all, if I could keep my mouth f**king shut none of that shit would have happened

Of course it's true, boy.
But there's no point in giving up.
You're just gonna hurt more people that way.

1. ima girl
2. yes there is
3. I am attempting to unfriend them so I can't hurt them

All of that adds up to say that they don't want to see you the way you are right now. And that they want you to feel better.
If you were selfish, you'd be happy right now. But you aren't.

I am mental a f**king phycopath

They might lie and they might try to make you feel better,
but that's just because they think you deserve to be better.
If you care about them, you'll do something for yourself.

I help people
the wrong people
I am not even aware that they are taking advantage of me
and it always resulted in a bunch of people getting hurt even the person I helped
sometimes I feel like I should unfriend everyone and die so they wouldn't care
But I'm not able to unfriend them any of them it so damn hard
I hurt all of them and they still want to be friends with me
I hurt them so damn hard
yet they get mad when I try to kill myself
it's so damn hard
If I do something that makes me laugh or smile it just makes me guilty
like how I don't deserve it
and how I took away the happiness of many people
how I hurt them
how I managed to be so selfish
why I even did it in the first place
I don't deserve anything not even a home, food, friends
ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!

I should be dead
this summer i blamed everything on this guy
everyone believed me If i tell them their trust in me will be broken
I wanted to help him so i gave him ideas and stuff
i gave him ideas but they were his actions
he got misunderstood
and everyone hated him
i would have defended him but i didn't want to lose my friends too
so i became a double agent i helped both sides
it was like adding fuel on top of a fire that was just put out
i wanted everything to stop
but i encouraged the drama
soon everything fell apart
our entire friend group became broken
and it was all my fault
i told one person
but she doesn't belive me
i told another they also don't belive me
NO ONE BELIVES IT'S MY FUALT
but it truly is
deep down i know it is
and it added 50 layers of guilt to the 150 layers i already had
and did i learn from this no
i started helping another person with bad intentions again
and it resulted in me hurting my best friend
I HURT HER OUT OF ALL PEOPLE
i hurt everyone i ever cared about
and everyone keeps telling me i am a good person
but i can tell they are saying that to make me feel better
i know they are lying
i DESERVE to die
i deserve nothing
not even a bed, a home, food nothing
i don't even deserve air
i deserve nothing but death

I don't deserve any friends not after I hurt the one I have...

And you see, this is the product of depression whether you accept it or not. How you feel right now, is going to change once you open up and allow them to help you.

I have talked to people
it doesn't help
it just makes me feel like they are lying to make me feel better and that they don't get it at all and then it makes me feel like I don't deserve them since they are being so nice
like you right now you are trying to make me feel better but I don't deserve to feel better