How??!!??!!??? How can i be myself when if i was i would get bullied and abandoned by people when i tried to make friends with them. The real nerdgrl is a crazy cat lady, loves rainbows, likes coloring in other people's drawings rather than drawing and coloring in her own work, loves playing with slime, can never sit still, has extreme, overwhelming anxiety, has ADHD and talks to much, is a picky eater, has the maturity level of a ten year old even though she's 13, and is a crazy, happy, outgoing person (the last part would be seen as a good thing by most people but the thing is that because of my ADHD my craziness is multiplied which means im SUPER crazy and strange and it can seem obnoxious to some people)...so yeah....this is why im not myself...