I can't imagine what its like to have the whole world tell you you're different or not as good simply because of something you were born with. But you are what you make of yourself, and I think you're doing a pretty good job. Its not your fault that you can't think the same way but maybe that's A good thing! Think of all the amazing people in the world that are or were autistic (Mozart, Seinfeld, Tim Burton, Michael Jackson, Beethoven etc)