So basically I'm trying to write down my thoughts and emotions in a rap style and teach myself to rap it. First verse lol

Every little moment of my life I've spent diggin my own grave and the graves of everyone that I was a slave to I was too weak to fight back but now I'm sick of all that bullshit running down my veins like adrenaline everything I've lost makes me question "am I meant to be anything more than just a young, dumb, heartless celebrity?" who am I meant to be is this the world really made for me guns pointed to my head every turn I take I wish I just just turn everything imaginary but I can't because its impossible don't know who I am and now I'm wondering if it's probable to hold down all my troubles and throw down what I've been through just to show some dirty fuçkers I can controller my life now I hold on to everything stay strong for everyone just to get punched down by everything and everyone that once stood in my way wrote down like a burning flame the end is near I can feel it but don't give up hope yet im still breathin' I'm a hopeless romantic I don't know how to live my life properly and everyone is sick of all the shit they've seen from me broke down in tears for me yelled and screamed because my souls legitamitely broke down I hold on the cords down of all the bullshit I've been through but I can't hold on I'm sick of it imngoing insane and nobody can stop me or help me with all the sounds I've been trying to drown out "it's hopeless" they said with doubt but I try and shove em out of my head because all of the stress is unnecessary I just need my success nothing else no regrets I don't care if I shove down the assholes that were in my way I will be successful one day just one day they'll wait and see illnbe richer than they'd ever be in their whole lives I'd gain fans and friends as people watch them slowly die