Hi there

Hi.
Rn I'm miserable. I'm pretty sure I'm not suicidal but idk. I mean I don't want to die but would anyone care if I did die. I mean my family would care. My friends would too. But they would eventually get over it. But I really don't want to die. I just want to be cute. Like for instance tonight I thought my hair and face looked cute for once. But I happened to be wearing a tank top and I saw my baggy arms. I love but hate shopping. I love it because it's awesome getting new stuff I hate it because I can't find cute clothes my size. I shouldn't be upset about it but I am. I mean some kids somewhere are being starved and I'm upset about this. I hate my smile. Not because of braces. Just because the way my face looks when I smile makes me look fatter. I wonder if the people I talk to actually like me. I wonder why they would talk to me. Out of Pity? Or maybe because I come up to them? I'm just they one fat kid now one should worry about. I try to be happy. But my family tells me i am the least happy one in the house. I really try. Sometimes my family brings out the worst of me.

nu you look fine please accept that

I just can't

Yes you can

I just feel like I look awful

You don't

A lot of people say that

But I don't think so. I'm fat. I'll never be able to wear cute clothes. I'll always look dumb when I want to dance

Nu

Yeah. I looked like an idiot when I did ballet because I was so fat

No because anyone can do ballet. You can take online courses if it's really too much. But no one will tease you for it. No one examines your body.

I couldn't keep up with the skinny girls.

You shouldn't compare.

I know I shouldn't but I do

It's ok!
Looks don't matter!
All that matters is that you are truly an amazing person, and that is enough.
Don't try to fit other's standards.
Fit to whatever standards make you happy. Fit to whatever standards make you, well, you!

Thanks. I just feel embarrassed

Don't be!
It's what makes you, you!
I know it's a fictional character, but think of Ben from IT.
He's out of shape as a kid, and as an adult he's hot as hell!

Well. I'm def not hot.

Neither is Ben!
You'll change as you get older!
Just maybe try doing an exercise routine, or going on a diet!

1 I have tried. I can't stick to it. I once got to a point were I went for a 2 mile walk but that stopped because my parents don't want to go
2 I'm probably the pickiest eater I know

Try going on bike rides! That sure helped me lose weight. I started going on a lot more bike rides and i lost about 10-15 pounds?

noice!!! hai