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The whole stream is nothing rather than just a white blank template

Literally my feeling after the accident yesterday...

Well, I'm close to.. ya know..

I don’t even know why someone join this stream....

I said on the description “DON’T JOIN”

But someone decides to join this stream

They taught this is a joke...

I just need a little bit of peaceful moments. But the accident yesterday keep echoing on my head... i can’t sleep on yesterday night

I can't keep away from harmful objects..

Ok..

I'm always keeping a loaded gun by me now...

Oh ok....

I'm so close to suicide... I don't want to but...

I will stay if i strong enough to staying here

If im not strong enough... probably i decide to leave for the third time

I was like 25% strong now... and i don’t know when it dropped into 0%

First my aunt was passed away

The second i was messed up with my life

This third someone hating on my best stream

And the last... well you already know it

All those things... just make my strong,stay,still percentage dropped like a cliff

Please help me....

I'm here for you...

Now i have two decision

1. Leaving imgflip into my world of boredom and depression

2. Stay in this hell (imgflip)

Stay with me

Why peoples keep saying “Im care with you.. im always with you bla bla bla” when they’re actually didn’t helped me here

I was very desperate now...

Sorry :<

(No i’m not gonna suicide, its bad)

But I mean it...

i don't know why im feeling down or idk something like... loosing my will thingy when i was commenting or reply an image on imgflip :<

the accident was stuck in my head and i can't forget about it

I have a trick

hhhh...

fine

Good...

Yes i know

You’re very close to suicide... just like me now

But i remember that Suicide was bad.. its ain’t fix anything.. even make it more worse

And Suicide can send you into hell

Hell is heaven compared to my life...

ok... what is it...?

Think about happy things, your friends, family, anybody you care about. Talk to somebody, cuddle, anything helps

I gtg, my phone is gonna lock itself in a few seconds

but just like what i said before

if i strong enough to stay here.. i will stayed

but if not.. i will probably leave (there's a chance that i will back again)

Well, you better give me another way to talk to you before that happens..

Okay...

Hey! watcha ya doing?

oh... ok...

guess im lonely now....

welp

Our life is basically a prequel of Hell

Even 2020 tho

...

Okay...

okay

:'3

What the?

my replies on Ashikurakojurata comment explain it all...