Dont do that. Please dont.
People who trying killing themselves never know how much someone loves them till its too late.
Look Spire, I know your scared to live, me too, a lot of people are. But We are also scared to die. Remember Nf? Paralyzed?
And people are sometimes shitty in our lives, and they treat us like crap and they claim they are in our corner, but leave us in times of need.
But God set out a path for you. He doesn't want you to kill yourself