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So basically I'm a drug addict. I've been sober for a week and a half now but the withdrawl symptoms keep getting worsde and i tried everything 2 make it stop but it wont. I baby sit and do online school at teh same time so stress and anxiety is getting real high especially since i cant do drugs. I made a deal with some one that 4 everyday i stay sober tahts a day they eat. Anyways, my mum is borderline biopolar so me and my brother hv 2 endure the pain she gives us when she's not in her manic phase. I cant call CPS cause then they'd take my brother away also 2 foster care and he's only 10 and i cant be there 2 help him. I also can't sleep cause I always hear gunshots in my head. I finished my meds way 2 early and hv 2 wait 4 a full month 2 get them. I xcant go 2 my biological adad cause he;s a sociopath and has already started a new life. I'm sick and tired of helping ppl w/ their problems but no one ever asks me how i am. I just want to yell at them and say get their shite together and deal w/ it like i am but i stilll help them cause i just cant do it. The only thig I've been doing 4 happiness is fighting in ally ways bc i want 2 c ppl in pain. I rly want 2 cry and i;'ve been hving mental break down everyday but icant cry bc i always think my mum will come from somewhere and start yelling at me for crying when i hv nothing 2 cry abt. Ik thats irrational but i cant cry even when i want 2 and its just horrible.

You wanna chat tomorrow? I'm here if you want to vent.

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oh yeah also my state insurance doesn't cover mental help or rehab. My fam can't afford it either cause its way 2 expensive.

Bro... I’m not tryna cry rn. Wtf tho? You’re 13 right? I think the best option is to call CPS but make it clear that you and your brother are to stay together. Under no circumstance should you let your brother away from your side. You need a saver place. And with the drug thing. If you live somewhere where you can get marijuana, get it. It will help with the withdrawals. And if I may ask, what drug is it specially? I used adderall for awhile and started to get hooked on it, but my dealer couldn’t get anymore. If it’s nicotine, then that’s not that bad. I was going through nicotine withdrawals for a bit. As I said, get weed. Even if you are against it, it will help you for the moment. And you can easily stop once you are in a better place. You can’t keep living like this man. But what ever happens, you can get through it. You f**kin got this my brother! Don’t ever give up! Never surrender!

u better

Ok lol

Yeah like a street fight. And find smth 2 do then.

Sound like fun! I wish I could be there to fight too

And idk what I would do

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If it doesn't take ur time away.

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All the time you need brother

lol Its all good mate

Ok cool man

I'm literally trying not to have a mental breakdown.

Mental break down > relapse

bc ur gonna look worse than u r now

From dimethyltryptamine? Nah it will cure my boredom

Wrong comment. Nvm

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Lol

lmao.

yeah ik! she lives pretty close 2 me. But we never made any plans lol

That’s pretty cool that you know someone on here that live close by

damn ok. And i live in REDMOND, F**KING WASHINGTON but close enough ig.
And ok!

Nooooo! You should hang with Satanic Ninja then. She lives there too! Why tf you guys got to be in Washington tho. Got damn

sounds good 2 me man

Finna bettt eh bud?

why aint it good? Its not like ur sober.

I’m sober rn sadly. But what you’re doing is a lot worse.

imma call up somebody ik and sell it to them....

Ok good! F**k you is scaring me

i found vicodin in my backpack.

Don’t f**king do it

damn mate...thats alot of stuff i didn't know. The court thing i mean. and y did u need a lawyer? also, i live in f**king redmond and I'm sure as hell u don't live anywhere near me. I'll think abt it but rn, I'm slowly loosing contact w/ reality and its affecting my life alot so i need 2 get that together.

But honestly tho, thx so much. also, sry if i replied late, i went out.

I accidentally shot a gun through my roof and almost killed someone working on top. So yah that’s why I had to get a lawyer. Also, if you live in REDMOND, F**KING OREGON! we need to hang. I live in Bend.

No problem at all! I have screen time so I won’t be able to reply past 10:30

ikr.

Yah lol

fine ig. U?

Fine ig. You got anything planned for today?

Its the least i can do.

I’m just glad I’m able to help someone else other then myself for once

i rather relapse. Relapse is way better than this

No it’s not

I just put the kids I'm baby sitting to their nap. Its weirdly quiet now.

Peace and quiet now

mhm

fine..I'm doing this cause I trust u. If it was anyone else I would have taken it.

Ok good! Thank you so much. Go***amn that was scary af

hey mate i gtg. Loved talking 2 ya again. ttyl maybe.

Ok ttyl! It was great talking to you. I’ll cya soon mate

i mean just don't get caught.

Yah lol

Or what?! Wht is anyone gonna do! Nobody's gonna do shite!

Hey, you need to pull it together. I doubt you have enough for a lethal dose, but I don’t want to find out. Please don’t. You need to stay strong. You are surrendering rn and that is not good

thx mate

Anytime. If you have a temptation, hit me up and I’ll try to change your mind

......i rly need 2 man....

I swear to f**k. You don’t need it.

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Likewise, thx.

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Nice man

Yes, I'm 13...and they will take my brother away from me, they say they won't but they will. And CPS needs the parents to say that yes, they've been abusing the child, but my mum has been denying it and they wont listen 2 me and my brother wont speak up cause he gets scared shite less. CPS said i need a lawyer bc mum wont step up but like wth, i dont hv he finances 2 get one! and I've been hooked on anything I can get my hands on. Nicotine, heroine, crystal meth, Adderall, diet pills, LSD, and then all of a sudden i cut them out.
i rly appreciate u taking the time outta ur day 2 talk 2 me.

You can get a court appointed lawyer. That’s what I did. It doesn’t cost any money. You need to talk to your brother about saying something. And if your mom tries doing something, you must team up and fight back. If that means holding her at knife point (you probably don’t have a gun) then that’s what must happen. In the end it will be in self defense. If and when that happens. Call 911 and get the cops involved. It may not be fun for the next couple of months or even a year or 2, but it will progressively get better as time progresses. And the drug thing, stay away from heroine, meth and, addys. Idk wtf diet pills do. LSD could be dangerous for you rn because of the events going on in your life. LSD tends to bring out a lot of things that you push down. Fr tho... Can I have some LSD? In the end tho it is a good thing to cut them out. Again, I urge you to start using weed for a bit to help with the withdrawals and stress. I have a good amount of experience with it and I can possibly get you a cart that will last you a month or so. I’ll trade you a 40 buck cart for 2 tabs of LSD. If not it will be 100% on me. The cart will last till the withdrawals are gone. And you won’t have any withdrawals because of it.

It is no problem at all. I have nothing better to do then try and help you. It means a lot to me that you were able to open up to me about this. I hope the best for you man.

ye xD

Yo. You wanna hang out with me, SN and Cody, when I’m on my way to Canada some time once I have a license?

ayyy

Ayyyyy lol

imma shove normal needles up my arm now so i can trick my brain that i took something.

...alright then... just don’t take anything

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How did ur day go

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It wasn’t as bad as normal. How bout you? How was your day?

hv a gn mate.

Good morning man. How r u?

then what should i f**king do with it?!

Throw it away or sell it idgaf. Just don’t consume it

yes.

Why tho?

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how ru

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Good. Thanks. You?

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Lets not talk abt that.

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What happened man? You good?

from the looks of you I'm sure u helped a couple people.

Yah one or two maybe

bro u need 2 take a chill pill lmao

Nah

yes it is. If i have to OD to stop scratching my skin off and hearing gunshots everyday I'll f**king do it.

DONT F**KING DO IT C**T

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k thx man. Its gonna take some time tho 4 me 2 type it out.

yeah.

Yep

k man i will.

Thank you

lmao, you gotta b real experienced tho. There aint no rules so you could literally get shot. Luckily that hasn't happened.

Have a knife for back up. Only use it if you need it. And if you do use it. Don’t stick em, slash. Only stick em if it’s life or death

thanks for helping me w/ my crap. I'm sorry.

Np! You don’t need to be sorry. It’s not your fault you are in a situation like this

I go fighting today at night. u?

Ooooo like a street fight? And nothing for me

ok

Lol sorry

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Life happened and thats that. Nothing's good. Not a single thing.

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You need to vent?

and just find something. You hv a brain so use it.

Yah I’ll figure something out

tbh tho, half the time idk wht the hell I'm doing.

Yah same. Sometimes I’m just so bored I want to rip my hair out. I actually did a little the other day

how is it worse?

Weed isn’t bad. Opiuo aids are

yepp

Lol

cool

Yep

yeah sure if you can to seattle somehow

Ok bet then. Maybe by then I’ll have a medical license and we can go smoke a dart

bro, u rly think i don't do that?

Yah you probably have it all figured out