I'm not crying...*cri* You are!!

FULL OF LONELINESS THIS GARDEN BLOOMED FULL OF THORNS I BIND MYSELF IN THIS SAND CASTLE WHAT IS YOUR NAME DO YOU HAVE A PLACE TO GO OH COULD YOU TELL ME? I SAW YOU HIDING IN THIS GARDEN AND I KNOW ALL OF YOUR WARMTH IS REAL THE BLUE FLOWER YOUR HAND WAS PICKING I WANT TO HOLD IT BUT IT’S MY FATE DON’T SMILE TO ME LIE TO ME BECAUSE I CAN’T GET CLOSER TO YOU THERE’S NO NAME YOU CAN CALL ME YOU KNOW THAT I CAN’T SHOW YOU ME GIVE YOU ME I CAN’T SHOW YOU A RUINED PART OF MYSELF ONCE AGAIN I PUT A MASK ON AND GO TO SEE YOU BUT I STILL WANT YOU BLOOMED IN A GARDEN OF LONELINESS A FLOWER THAT RESEMBLES YOU I WANTED TO GIVE IT TO YOU AFTER I TAKE OFF THIS FOOLISH MASK BUT I KNOW I CAN'T DO THAT FOREVER I HAVE TO HIDE BECAUSE I'M A MONSTER I AM AFRAID I AM SHATTERED I’M SO AFRAID THAT YOU WILL LEAVE ME AGAIN IN THE END ONCE AGAIN I PUT ON A MASK AND GO TO SEE YOU; THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IN THE GARDEN IN THIS WORLD IS TO BLOOM A PRETTY FLOWER THAT RESEMBLES YOU AND TO BREATHE AS THE ME THAT YOU KNOW BUT I STILL WANT YOU I STILL WANT YOU MAYBE BACK THEN A LITTLE JUST THIS MUCH IF I HAD THE COURAGE TO STAND BEFORE YOU WOULD EVERYTHING BE DIFFERENT NOW I'M CRYING THAT’S DISAPPEARED THAT’S FALLEN LEFT ALONE IN THIS SANDCASTLE LOOKING AT THIS BROKEN MASK AND I STILL WANT YOU BUT I STILL WANT YOU BUT I STILL WANT YOU AND I STILL WANT YOU