hey mom... i don't know if you're reading this. im going to assume not. if you are, then maybe you'll understand. i never got to say goodbye. i hate goodbyes. something bad always happens after them. i didn't say goodbye, because, really, i didnt want you gone. ever. and i thought, that, maybe if i didn't say goodbye, you would never really be gone. just not here right now. i miss you. i miss you a lot. i hope that if you are reading this, that you'll understand that. i love you.