Try smoking weed. It has helped me get through so tough shit. Ik it sounds kind bad, but you need to trust me on this. I have pretty strict parents when it comes to electronics so I can talk to friends that much. Just try and get like a dab pen cart for like 40 bucks and it will last you a month or so. Also if you can get a job it will help pay for that. I’m 14 so I can legally work, but idk about you. Smoking just helps you think of good things, helps you sleep (if it’s a indica based strain), relieves any physical pain, relieves stress and, helps make your worries melt away. Try it once and if you don’t like it then don’t do it again.