Oh, that's rough... I'm very sorry for that. Well, in here you can be you and we will support you. I hope your situation will improve. Do you think it would help telling your mom that having short hair doesn't make you less of a girl? (I know that's not actually the point, but it might help you get shorter hair if you want it.) There are quite a few examples of cis-het women with short hair you could show her. I mean, ideally I'd want her to respect your decisions instead of being too scared to let you just experiment - it's just hair, afterall... But until then maybe there might be some fast ones you could pull. π€