THINKING YOU'RE A WEIRD PERVERTED BOY; ADMITTING YOU WOULD HAVE RATHER BEEN A GIRL "IF YOU HAD A CHOICE"; ACCEPTING YOU'RE TRANS, AND REALISING THAT TRANSITIONING IS ACTUALLY A REAL POSSIBILITY, AND THAT IT MIGHT ACTUALLY BE POSSIBLE FOR YOU TO ONE DAY "PASS" AND ACTUALLY LOOK LIKE THE BEAUTIFUL GIRL YOU FEEL LIKE INSIDE; DECONSTRUCTING CIS-NORMATIVE BEAUTY STANDARDS AND REALISING THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TO PASS AS CIS TO BE BEAUTIFUL OR "LOOK LIKE A GIRL"; NO LONGER EVEN BEING AWARE OF WHETHER YOU, OR OTHER GIRLS, "PASS" OR NOT; FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOUR TRANS BEST FRIEND