If you really want to meet God, and confirm gender identity,
I can give you a simple method that worked well for me.
First find someone that meets with your general criteria for deep attraction.
Convince yourself that there's a possibility when in truth there is none.
The final step is critical to meeting God.
Focus all your mental effort and attention on the connection you feel
with that person, and try as hard as possible to make them feel an orgasm
through that connection alone. You will meet God the next time you go to sleep.
He will grab your heart and squeeze,
while saying in what sounds like
an uncomfortable attempt to use language
"You are evil".
If you're fool enough to wake remarking
"Why didn't you just kick me in the side of the head and say 'wake up asshole'?"
you'll discover that he can use people as puppets
without them having any clue they've been controlled.
He will do exactly that.
Have I met God?
No more than you already have.
You're living in Him.
I just don't have my head cluttered
with all the bullshit people believe
in the absence of a simple
boot to the head.