THINKING YOU’RE A WEIRD PERVERTED BOY; ADMITTING THAT YOU WOULD HAVE RATHER BEEN A GIRL, “IF YOU HAD A CHOICE”; ACCEPTING THAT YOU ARE TRANS AND REALISING THAT IT’S ACTUALLY A POSSIBILITY FOR YOU TO TRANSITION, AND THAT YOU MIGHT ONE DAY ACTUALLY PLAUSIBLY BE ABLE TO “PASS” AND LOOK LIKE THE BEAUTIFUL GIRL THAT YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE ON THE INSIDE; DECONSTRUCTING CIS-NORMATIVE BEAUTY STANDARDS AND REALISING THAT YOU DON’T NEED TO PASS AS A CIS GIRL TO BE BEAUTIFUL, OR TO “LOOK LIKE A GIRL”; ACTIVELY BEING INSPIRED BY “NON-PASSING” TRANS GIRLS’ STYLE AND BEAUTY AND ACTIVELY WANTING TO LOOK/BE LIKE THEM; NOT EVEN BEING ABLE TO TELL WHETHER OR NOT GIRLS “PASS” ANYMORE; FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOUR TRANS BEST FRIEND