..rant in the comments all about social anxiety.

..I don't understand, what's wrong with me ?
Why do I literally fear talking to people?
Why do I sweat and start stuttering when the sales lady asks me if I need help?
Why can't I be confident?
Why do I want to cry Everytime I walk into a store?
..it's not only bc I'm an introvert, im socially anxious through text, and with my family. Like who the f**k gets all awkward and anxious because of a freaking three year old?
.. wrong with me ? Why can't I make friends? Why can't I just be chill while walking in a crowd.
I'm not even angry, I'm tired , I'm tired of my life, I'm tired of being so mentally broken down. I'm tired, I'm not depressed anymore..I just can't fix what my depression ruined.
I wasn't like that

Im not a doctor (i mean, i am only thirteen, of course I'm not one,) but imma guess that You simply have Social anxiety disorder, if you really can't talk around someone, then ask your parents for a therapist so that way you can get help, I would help you but cant since we're far apart. But if you want to vent, I'm willing to listen and help if I even can

Thanks alot, I do know I have social anxiety, but I wasn't professionally diagnosed. My mom is a therapist and works as a councilor. So I'm trying to get myself to reach help from her.once I get to talk to her. The problem is that she's the only person that could help me, but she's so far away, and bc of the pandemic, it's impossible for her to come and see me. Anyway thanks alot, ur really helping with this.

you're welcome, and I'll continue to try helping if I can

Thx

sure

I'm sorry I've been very negative in the past couple of days, all my problems are piling up these days. Thanks to every person that has been trying their best to keep me positive..y'all mean so much to me, more that you can ever imagine.