When God speaks directly to us, we tend not to question our own sanity so much as the sanity of those who don't hear Him. All charity comes from Him, through those who obey Him knowingly and unknowingly. If you have needs, they are not unknown. He created them too.
He doesn't expect you to do good works without reward, any more than sin without consequence.
A hand up is not a hand out....
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