I'm still here, I'm still alive, but I'm still sad inside

I've found that the best advice comes from people who have experienced it. They can know a lot about how you feel. Gives me meaning ya know?

That is true. Mayhaps that is my purpose in life

I had a bad day yesterday

Did you wanna talk about it?

I screwed up

My step-mom asked me to put the clean utensils away after I had just finished helping her and my step-sister carry the groceries into the house, and I just rolled my eyes and she got PISSED

Now she's gonna snitch on me to my mom, who by the way is quick-tempered, and I'm really afraid of the consequences 😭😭 I tried apologizing, but that doesn't "work on her"

She then told me to go upstairs to my room, despite my botched attempts at bargaining

So I did, and SCREAMED into a pillow as loud as I could, but I still feel like garbage

Now I'm just sitting here in my room with the lights off, completely engulfed by darkness

That's pretty much it

So are you upset about screwing up or upset about what the consequences were, or both?

Both

Hmm, well I can help you with the screwing up part.

Don't beat yourself up over it, everyone messes up. Learn the lesson from it of course so you don't do it again but dwelling on it isn't gonna solve anything. It's not the end of the world if you mess up, you just have to learn what you can from it then move on.

Consequences...yeah, I don't know if I have advice exactly but I'll wish you luck.

For me, it's the end of the world. I'm a natural people pleaser and I don't like to upset anyone. Basically, I don't like to get on anyone's bad side

Well same. I'm getting to be less and less like that though. Just think about it, no matter how much you worry about something in the past, you can't change it. You should think it through of course to see what you did wrong so you don't repeat it, but after that you really just need to let go of it.
I'm not perfect at it but I'm getting better. Don't let your past stifle your future. Learn from it, but don't let it control you.
You're gonna do things that'll make people upset. You have to move on from those situations, ask for forgiveness where necessary, and do better in the future.

And if they don't forgive me?

If someone fails to forgive you they are the ones drinking the poison. They will be enslaved by their bitterness until they die.

I have succeeded at not committing suicide for over 40 years. I refuse to force others to cry over my dead body. I have lost two friends recently in this way. I will always be angry at them both.