I AM CLOSER TO THE GOLDEN DAWN, IMMERSED WITHIN THE UNIFORM OF IMAGERY OF ALEISTER CROWLEY; I AM LIVING WITHIN A SILENT MOVIE PORTRAYING THE SACRED REALM OF DREAM REALITY OF HEINRICH HIMMLER; I AM FRIGHTENED BY THE TOTAL GOAL, DRAWING TO THE RAGGED CRATER AND I NO LONGER HATH THE STRENGTH; NAY, I NO LONGER HATH THE STRENGTH