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THE THING NOW IS, THAT ALTHOUGH IM VERY HAPPY, IM PRETTY SUICIDAL, IM NOT SURE IF ITS THE RIGHT WORD TO USE, BC THE ONLY THING STOPPING ME FROM DOING THOSE STUFF IS THAT I DONT WANT TO DIE; I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS, AS SOON AS THE PANDEMIC STARTED AND I GOT TO TAKE A BREAK FROM SCHOOL AND FOCUS MORE ON MYSELF, I GOT RID OF IT ALL, IM VERY HAPPY NOW AND IM GRATEFUL THAT ITS OVER. DEFINITELY, AT THAT TIME I WAS VERY SUICIDAL, BUT THANKFULLY I DIDNT DO ANYTHING. IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN, BUT I HAVE THIS REALLY STRONG DESIRE TO JUMP OFF A HIGH BUILDING, I DONT MIND BREAKING A BONE OR SO, BUT I JUST DONT WANT TO DIE. I FEEL LIKE I WOULD BE REALLY FUN. (YEAH IK WHAT UR THINKING I MIGHT BE PSYCHOPATHIC, I DID A TEST ONLINE, IT SAID IM NOT DW. ); OOF, THIS IS SO MUCH TO READ, IM VERY SORRY TO WHOEVER IS GONNA READ THIS. BUT TYSM FOR BOTHERING | image tagged in pastel galaxy | made w/ Imgflip meme maker
1,027 views 5 upvotes Made by lavender_365 4 years ago in Suicide_Hotline
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1 up, 4y,
1 reply
Well we're glad you decided to tell us before doing anything to yourself.
Have you discussed this with anyone at home?
0 ups, 4y
not rlly, my mom knows, but ive always taken it as a joke, never thought of it as a serious problem.
1 up, 4y,
1 reply
I know someone who's had similar experiences. They would hurt themselves pretty bad from what they told me, and they said that they just wanted to and that it felt normal to them. I think that they ended up getting medicine so they don't really have those specific problems anymore.
Anyway, I'll pray for you.
1 up, 4y
thanks, i honestly can hold myself from doing those stuff, but im afraid i cant stop myself one day. i thought of doing them but in a safe way, like the one where i want to jumps of a high building, i could just go skydiving, but i dont think i can actually go skydiving at my age.
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1 up, 4y,
5 replies
I need some help.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Yeah I get what ur tryna say, k, do u go to any clubs, like basketball or anything else?
If u do, then there are people there that might share most of ur intrests
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
I do Teakwondo. I joined bc my friend did it. then he moved and he doesnt do it anymore.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Cool!
I wanted to learn karate and kung fu a few years ago,

Do you know any other ppl there? Maybe u could try to make friends with them, also ppl who were friends with u friend that moved, you could try also getting into tech clubs or any other stuff surrounding ur interests, try ur best to be friendly with everyone and start conversations whenever u get a chance.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
I have other friends. The friend that skipped a grade, a different friend, the friend who moved sister still goes there. So yeah i have other friends there.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
So yeah, stay around the ones that make u feel good, the ones that are positive, and try ur best to avoid being around the negative ones all the time, if ur close , then yeah try to help them feel better, but I mean the toxic ones, like ones that tell u ad stuff abt urself, they just have a negative impact on u, which ain't good for sure.
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0 ups, 4y
All right.
0 ups, 4y,
4 replies
hey, sure/ what can i help u with
[deleted]
1 up, 4y,
3 replies
I'm really depressed
0 ups, 4y
k, we can talk about it
0 ups, 4y
maybe if we organise all of your thoughts and try to solve your problems things might get better, right?
0 ups, 4y,
5 replies
so what makes you think that ur parents hate u?
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
They yell at me and pretty much try to make me suffer as much as they can. I think they dont like me bc we dont see eye to eye. they say im only a kid so i dont gte to make the discisions and when i protest that they get really angry with me.
0 ups, 4y,
3 replies
well really, all parents yell at their kids, nut thats because theyre trying to protect them, thats why. and its also normal for them to say that, but you can try your best to gently tell them your oppinion or try to convince them.

but how do they make you suffer?
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0 ups, 4y
whenevr I try something it makes it worse.
[deleted]
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Making me stay at home. thy wont let me leave. and homeschool is the worst.
0 ups, 4y
for how long do they ground you?
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
They're phyco. they're just evil. at least thats what i think.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
maybe you think that because you cant understand them try asking them why they dont like you
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0 ups, 4y
Maybe. But Idk. Whenever they try to ask why I dont like them they're yelling at me and denying like crazy. But it's still a possiblity.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
my parents hate me bc we dont see eye to eye on a lot of things. Thye yell at me until I put a knife on my throat. They say im only a kid so i dont get to make the discions when i protest that they get really angry. then when i disobey their orders they get even mor angry. im not ever going to do what they say unless i think its right. They want to put into foster care.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
look, it seems like ur parents are pretty harsh, but maybe if you listen to them, things could get better.

at the end theyre trying to raise you, if you dont think its right, theyre grown ups, they have more experience. they know more, they know whats better for you.

look, try listening to what they say, and do the things they tell you to do, and if you dont think its right,just try telling them really calmly. maybe theyll start treating you better, also try getting closer to them, like talk to them about stuff when they arent mad, and try to tell them how you feel when they treat you like that.

some decisions should actually chosen by the older ones, they know whats better for you.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
My mom is always talking about how her mom didnt give a shit about her when she was a kid. and my dad says his dad whipped him with a belt. so, no I dont think that they have more expierience. they probably have less.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
No not really, bad stuff that happen to u teach u the most valuable lessons in life
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0 ups, 4y
Enough bad stuff has happened to me already. dont u think?
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
I'm gonna kill myself.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
it wont fix anything, listen there are many solutions to ur problem, suicide isnt one, it wont fix anything,honey it only passes ur pain to other ones that loves you, and dont tell me none does, because u cant read minds..u never know.
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0 ups, 4y
Outside of school and video games my life is hell.
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0 ups, 4y,
3 replies
My friend on Roblox just hurt me by saying im ugly when i went ona zoom cal with them.
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
wait, did u roast them ? xd
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1 up, 4y
I gtg c u tommorrow
[deleted]
1 up, 4y
I actually did roast them. I said their voice was high pitched, but not in a mean way. and her voice actully is high pitched.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
well maybe in their opinion ur not so pretty, but others find u pretty.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
shes asian so i think she just rascist.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
eh maybe , but dont just take everything as racism
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0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
I really have no idea but it really hurt me. The rascism was justa suggestion
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Well, she's just a toxic friend, try finding new friends, that will make u feel better
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0 ups, 4y
My best friend just moved to california I can talk to him on discord only. I wasn't in the same class as my other friends this year so we've kind of grown apart. My other friend skipped a grade and now goes to a different school than me. and the one friedn that was in my is in the other class and with online school its kinda hard to have friends. sry for the mistakes. im typing on a smaller keyboard than im used to.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Issok,

Well look, maybe you can try making new friends,like ones in the upper or lower grade, or just with others in ur grade that u don't know well, friends are a big support during tough times
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0 ups, 4y
I've tried. I just wouldn't want those ppl as a friend. I want my friends to be more my age. that way they understand me better. I need to have stuff in common with them. Y'know what I mean?
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
and who cares if ur ugly?! as long as u have a nice personality and ur kind, ur appearance doesnt matter!
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
i dont actually think im ugly. but i thought she was my friend btu she just wanted to put me down.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
maybe she was joking?
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1 up, 4y
Idk
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
The whole world is against me
0 ups, 4y
dont say that, im here, i can be ur friend and support u, and ill try mybest helping you through this
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1 up, 4y
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0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
I'm only ten so theres not a whole lot I can do about my friend's depression or mine. Im on the verge of killing myself and if I have to live like this im definitally gonna kill myself
0 ups, 4y
also, ending your life wont fix anything, you still have a long life ahead of you, think of all the amazing things you still didnt do. think about your goals.
0 ups, 4y,
6 replies
look, lemme tell u something , the most important thing i learned when i got depressed, was the everything changes, nothing stays the same, bad things nor good things, thats just the way life works. and once u want to change something, believe you can do it, and stuff will change, small movements make big deferences, your age doesnt matter, as long as u believe you can do it.
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0 ups, 4y
and whenever I try to talk to them about why they do those thing they get even angrier.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
But its not just my parents its my siblings too. They know my parents hate me and they take advantage of that. they hurt me put me down and other stuff.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
can you tell me how long youve been feeling like this?
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
ever since I was 7 yrs old so three years of major depression minor depression before that.
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
Oh no, that's so long, have u tried to talk to someone about it before?
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1 up, 4y,
3 replies
It is pretty long. I've been depressed ever since I could understand how bad the world is.
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
Oh I'm 13 which is why I. Thinking u should also get help from someone older.
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1 up, 4y
U sound older than thirteen.
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1 up, 4y
In a good way. Not accusing u of lying.
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
I promis its not that bad, ur just looking at the dark side of it, things always get better , I promise
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1 up, 4y
alright. BTW how old r u?
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1 up, 4y
I want to make other peoples lives better. Most likely with technology, that can impact more ppl. but my parents arent letting me. thats the most frustrating part.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Lol thanks
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0 ups, 4y
ur welcome.
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0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
and no, I have not tried to talk to someone about it besides my friends, roblox and real life, or imgflip. I tried therapy. but it didnt help.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Oh OK, so she only listened....
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0 ups, 4y
yeah.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Therapy? So u talked to a professional therapist right?
[deleted]
0 ups, 4y
for a little while over zoom. it sucked. she didnt help me. she just said uh huh, and ok and stuff like that.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
also the world is such a terrible place. even without my mom. The more I think about it the worse my depression gets. And I cant stop thinking about it.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
hey, thats just your brain trying to make you sad, dont listen to it, challenge your negative thoughts!
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0 ups, 4y,
3 replies
My family needs something to blame for their frustration and anger and unfortunately that person is me.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Maybe that's not true, maybe they're just mad because eyou don't listen to them.
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0 ups, 4y,
3 replies
I dont want to listen to them. they're not seeing my side of the story.
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
Be cause they're the ones that teach us everything in life, they teach us everything they learned in their life through experience, they think in different ways, and that's really the main reason we have parents, they're not only there to take care of us, they're there to teach us how life works. Can a baby talk without his mom and dad teaching him how to? No, same goes on many other stuff, a kid may be holding a pencil the wrong way, he thinks he's right, but his parents know the actual right way, so they teach him. That's how humanity works, we mainly learn from our parents.

Lions and tigers do that too, they can catch their prays unless their mom teaches them.
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1 up, 4y
Why though? Why cant I learn from someone else? If I've learned enough about this world to be this depressed about I shouldnt need them teaching me. They're wrong about the world though.
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1 up, 4y
But what if the lions mom doesnt know hwo to hunt. Thats like my parents.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Yes, but theyre ur parents , u have to listen to them, even if u think they're wrong.
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0 ups, 4y
they dont want to accpet my potential. I'm great with computers coding, building games in roblox, finding things on the internet, ect. but they're not letting me be on the computer. why do I have to listen to them. just bc they're my parents? if they were the same ppl and I was in a different family would i have to listen to them? no. so why do i have to listen to them even if theyre wrong? i shouldnt have to. I'm gonna stand for whats right, and no ones going to stop me.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
*sigh*

Look, we listen to our parents, because
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0 ups, 4y
bc what? my point in a nutshell
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
U cant learn everything by urself, as long as ur alive ur learning, I passed by soo much and I've been depressed, but I still need my parents to teach me all the stuff I know.

Learn it the easy way, its better than having life teach u.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
I'd rather have satan teach me.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
No really, none cares about u more than ur parents
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1 up, 4y
Not sure about that.
0 ups, 4y
I'm sorry my lap top is lagging, thats why I'm slow
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
The only thing stopping me from killign myseld is video games and my friends.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
okay, can you tell me 5 things ur gratefull for today?
ex: that i have good friends
the wether was good today
i have a nice shirt
i ate a donut today
etc...
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
The Imgflip community full of ppl like u
I has sushi today
My computer
my dog i love dogs
one more day closer to moving out of my moms house
0 ups, 4y
Nice, c u have many problems, but you still have good stuff , look at the nice stuff, u have friends, and let me tell u ur very lucky to have them, I'm very lonely,and I wish for just one friend.

Making a list of five things ur grateful for everyday will help u feel way better
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0 ups, 4y
Its gonna stay the same for 8 more yrs. I cant take that.
[deleted]
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
I'm not old enough to get a work permit.
[deleted]
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
So I cant live somewhere else.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
*sigh*
this is hard, but maube things might change if you try to make your relationship with your parents better
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1 up, 4y
I've tried but it doesnt work. any way I try it doesnt work. I dont like the way they parent me.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
do you have any relatives? like a grandma or an uncle?
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1 up, 4y
They're not willing to have me live with them bc my parents will get mad at them for some made up reason.
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
I dont trust anyone outside of the internet or my friends.
0 ups, 4y
honestly, same, i dont trust anyone.
0 ups, 4y,
2 replies
hey u there?
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1 up, 4y,
1 reply
Ill talk to u tommorrow! I apricciate ur support!
0 ups, 4y
NP! I'm always there if u wanna talk to me
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Sry i couldnt get back to u sonner my my k=hid my laptop
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0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
My mom* sry iw as tryign to type fast.
0 ups, 4y
Its OK, I I thought that that's what happened. I had to leave BC it was really late at night in my time.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Hey I might have to leave soon, its nearly lunchtime for me.
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1 up, 4y,
1 reply
I'm in a zoom meeting rn.
0 ups, 4y
OK cool, have fun!
0 ups, 4y,
3 replies
OK.so, let's see,
The causes of your depression are:
-how ur parents treat you
-how you're very distant from your friends

Am i right?
Please tell me if there's any think u wanna add or take away.
[deleted]
1 up, 4y,
1 reply
hey u there?
0 ups, 4y
Sorry I was rally busy today
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1 up, 4y,
2 replies
I also have a really mean nanny. She yells at me and is a reall jerk shes basically just my parents. I can't escape her either. Also my sibling are another reason.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Oof, well simply ur not comfortable with anyone at home right?
[deleted]
0 ups, 4y
Yeah.
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0 ups, 4y
And there is so much bad in the world I dont want to type it.
[deleted]
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
More. But those are the major sources.
0 ups, 4y,
1 reply
Yeah OK, so for now, lets focus on u, and ur mental health,

Now, how many bad days do u have in a week?
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0 ups, 4y
I'd say about 6/7.
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    THE THING NOW IS, THAT ALTHOUGH IM VERY HAPPY, IM PRETTY SUICIDAL, IM NOT SURE IF ITS THE RIGHT WORD TO USE, BC THE ONLY THING STOPPING ME FROM DOING THOSE STUFF IS THAT I DONT WANT TO DIE; I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION FOR ABOUT 6 MONTHS, AS SOON AS THE PANDEMIC STARTED AND I GOT TO TAKE A BREAK FROM SCHOOL AND FOCUS MORE ON MYSELF, I GOT RID OF IT ALL, IM VERY HAPPY NOW AND IM GRATEFUL THAT ITS OVER. DEFINITELY, AT THAT TIME I WAS VERY SUICIDAL, BUT THANKFULLY I DIDNT DO ANYTHING. IDK HOW TO EXPLAIN, BUT I HAVE THIS REALLY STRONG DESIRE TO JUMP OFF A HIGH BUILDING, I DONT MIND BREAKING A BONE OR SO, BUT I JUST DONT WANT TO DIE. I FEEL LIKE I WOULD BE REALLY FUN. (YEAH IK WHAT UR THINKING I MIGHT BE PSYCHOPATHIC, I DID A TEST ONLINE, IT SAID IM NOT DW. ); OOF, THIS IS SO MUCH TO READ, IM VERY SORRY TO WHOEVER IS GONNA READ THIS. BUT TYSM FOR BOTHERING