Get Used To It, But As An Introvert, I Love This Quarantine

What did I miss?

You missed upvoting the meme or that was Trooper01 cause I'm really getting pissed at people for commenting and not upvoting the f**king meme.
IF YOU HAVE THE DECENY TO COMMENT SOMETHING NICE, HAVE THE DECENCY TO UPVOTE THE MEME, NOT THAT F**KING HARD. CLICK THE BUTTON, YOU'RE NOT GONNA BREAK YOUR ARM, IT WON'T BITE, JUST-
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Calm down. Look at yourself

I don't feel like walking to a mirror.

Huh?

To look at myself. Anyway... I'll be... gone...
I don't know anymore...
Maybe I'll be back, maybe I won't... I'll think about it...

Okay.

Huh... Ya know what's funny...?
Our own thoughts and beliefs lead to our own actions... Then we put them into actual action and have to pay the consequences, we point our fingers on the innocent because we're all afraid to admit our own mistakes... We're afraid we'll never be accepted for our own thoughts and beliefs... we all fear the truth cause it hurts...
And we always fall in love with something we can't ever have... we tear ourselves apart over it... we put other things aside to focus on the things that will NEVER EVER happen... Heh...
But isn't is sweet how we all are afraid to die alone but we can't predict our own death... unless it is forced... and Whiplash came back anyway... Ironic, huh? Our own pasts have a way of haunting our present and even our future, even if the future is unpredictable... unchangeable... Huh...
Humans sure are complicated... And the sad thing is... we made ourselves to be like this... Yet we're all afraid to accept that... We all think it'll get better... but... that is in the future... and how would we know...? Heh...
Think about it...

Be careful of your thoughts, for your thoughts become your words. Be careful of your words, for your words become your actions. Be careful of your actions, for your actions become your habits. Be careful of your habits, for your habits become your character. Be careful of your character, for your character becomes your destiny. --

Because the mind is the root of evil; therefore...

Be careful...

I know that... Whiplash even had a breakdown the other day... I think he killed the others cause he had such a deep fear of dying alone... Yet, he lived... and now his past haunts him... I never understood that psychopath.

Please repeat what I said and think it through carefully.
After that, give me a short summary...

Be careful...

A short summary of what?

Everything-

I am confusion.

Repeat what I said slowly and carefully. Be careful, I need you to remember this.

I already know it. My one teacher had a poster with that on it and I remembered it from there.

Okay, now, calm down. Why do you want to die? What gives you a motivation?

Everything... I don't even see anything worth living for anymore.

Why? What’s everything?

Well...
My sides are more quiet anymore... Taboo and Sicarius don't talk that much anymore and Whiplash is... I don't know, he's probably going insane at this point.
Online school and all this bullshit, f**king teachers not even letting us enjoy our break...
I don't feel loved anymore by the people I wished loved me...
I think my family I am living with isn't my biological family, meaning neither of my biological parents don't give a shit about me...
Life just seems boring and... worthless...
I feel worthless...
I don't see a point in me being here anymore, I'm better off dead...

But you realize that, if you die, you’ll come back in another body. Your luck is based on your past and further. There’s a long way, if you kill yourself, you can’t die because you didn’t reach destiny

Being quiet means a lot. Being loved by people who you don’t want to be loved by is a gift too.

I did enough to be content with my death.

Why so?

HOW IS THAT A F**KING GIFT? SOMETIMES I TEAR MYSELF APART OVER IT

It’s a gift to have side personality. It’s a gift that you want to die, it’s a gift to have unloving parenst

HOW IS IT ALL A GIFT?! I wish it was worse... Sometimes I wish some bully would just beat the Hell out of me until I could barely move...

That’s a gift too Shad.

I dON't uNDeRStaND

If you don’t understand, that’s a gift too.

That's it, I'm gonna go get a knife and cut.

Why? You know that’s a gift.

Are you done?

I am now... and lets just say... I had some fun with cutting...

Show me the cut.

Just imagine a plus sign on a wrist...

What did I say? Show me the cut.

Proves me, you didn’t cut

I swear I did, but my computer camera sucks and you can't see it due to the blurriness.

Bet, take it.

i’m sorry to say this but...

𝗘𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗼𝗻 𝘂𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝘅 𝘀𝗰𝗶𝘀𝘀𝗼𝗿!

?

Hm. Okay, not too bad. You got any disinfection skin alcohol?

Boi, I don't see how its not bad, I used a knife that had big ridges in it, dug it into my skin, and moved it back and forth until it cut. But my skin for some reasons seals up pretty fast which is f**king annoying.

Could I see the knife? For me the cut seems fine. Plus, that’s a gift

Alright. Cutting again?

I can't get a photo of it cause I would have to sneak it upstairs but it was one like this, just no sharp tip and the ridges were a bit bigger:

Hm, not that sharp. Is that the only knife you cut with?

Here, tell your dad

No, I used another.

The other was like this, jus' yer ever'y'day normal knife:

Okay, seems fine. Stop cutting, gets better

Like, I mean, I could've straight up stabbed myself.

Hm, how deep? Deeper than mine? The 4-6 inch one?

Depends on which knife I used... and I found a whole thing of knives in my basement... hehe...

The most basic. Mine was a 4-6 inch cut that skinned my liver

I could probably get a big ass knife.

Okay, stop, now.

I'm going to call 911 now. What's your last name?

I ain't actually gonna do it.

Okay, okay, let's talk some shit

?

Why ain't I in Olymps family tree? I'm your son!

Because I don't know where I even fit... I don't know who your father would be or what...

It should be KITB bitch

...
You wouldn't get it...
If...
*sighs*
Its too much on me...
I can't take it...

it should be KITB. I'll be in the background going, why is mommy and daddy playing leap frog without me?

You don't know my half of the story...

C'mon them, tell me

I can't...

Why? Do it.

Oh, I know, Cheez...

Y-Yeah....
T-That...

Here's some facts. KITB likes you when he met you (Including his old account)

I know...

The hell houdini? How the hell?

He told me...

Ah-
I did that, sorry...

so, what do you think of KITB?
(Is Cheez mean when you like someone else)

*shrugs*

Say it.
(Is it true?)

Hm?
(Is what true?)

(Is Cheez mean when you like someone else or someone else likes you?)
What do you like about KITB?

(I don't even know anymore... It seems to be... the other way around))

(Dear god, you get mad?)
ANSWER ME!

(Yes... its one of the reasons I cut... Its also one of the reasons Whiplash is the way he is... I just never... I'm not supposed to... I-I....*sigh* What does it matter anymore? He doesn't love me, does he?)

(Your saying Cheez?)

(Yeah)

CHILL