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No, surprisingly I am not.

That's good! I'm not either. I think the media hypes everything up more then necessary and downplays other things. Not always to the benefit of those watching.

No, I just really aren't worried cause I want to die, so I can't wait to get it.

Is this Ememeon speaking who wants to die or another person? You're too young honey to be talking like that. Sorry but to date no children have died from Corona, (i think one child in all of China was reported) it just isn't that deadly to the young and healthy.

Yeah, its Ememeon, not one of my sides.

So if one of your best friends said what you just told me. What would you say to them?

I'd go on a whole rant on how there lives are worth living and how I'm there for them and all. If it were my sides, Taboo would probably be the same, Sicarius could probably care less.

So do you not believe the advice you would give to your own friend? Because you're right your life is worth living.

Yeah, I spoke to my guidance counceler about it and told her how I can give info about how to stay positive to people and I was talking to my friend about this all in front of her, being a mentor and she just kind of let me talk it out and said that I was good at it, but I just find it hard to accept my own advice, ya know? I guess its only natural considering I'm a pessimistic emo...

Well it's not uncommon. I find myself doing the same thing. Telling others advice but not taking it myself. My counselor once said, imagine yourself as a young child and you are there to protect yourself, nurture yourself and comfort. How would you do that if you saw yourself as a helpless, scared, lost child? It really helps me to stop and think, yes I deserve to get the same care and attention I give others. Why should I neglect my own good and only reach out to others? It makes a difference.

Yeah, true.

Yes, and it made me worry about me having to stay home all the time and not being able to finish High School if the Coronavirus lasts more than 2 years. I cried a lot because of it and the only contact I got is my boyfriend and my family in real life and my friends in ImgFlip. I'm sorry to say this, but this loneliness is killing me (not literally but you get the idea and it's making me have a relapse on recovering from depression and anxiety). It's scaring and traumatizing me and I have no one to blame but China. *sniff* I'm just very upset about it in general. I-if China didn't cause this, none of this chaos would've happened!!! This is so unfair that I have to be traumatized from this and I will never, ever live this down as long as I live. *sobbing so much that I need a hug*