*inhales*

mood

Lol

Hey, daughter, wanna get some hug?

Fine. I guess.

*hugs*

*hugs*

You're precious, alright? Don't hurt yourself, it's not worth it. *kisses your forehead*

I did.

You did, but you shouldn't

Last night.

...
Please, don't do that ever again

Bella....I know how this sounds, coming from me, but....you cant do that anymore....

You gonna respond?

I dont know how to respond though.....Im not ignoring you....

Just any way. *hugs tighter*

Okai, then, well, come here *pats shoulder*

Nya!

*smiles*

What about you, Toshiue no itoko?

Um, which part am I responding too...?

It doesn’t really matter, my toshiue no itoko.

Youre not really saying that right....and, I have plenty of Neko OCs....

Got it!
Cousin:itoko
Older cousin:toshiue no itoko
Younger cousin:wakai itoko
Sister:Shisutā
Older sister:Onēsan
Younger sister:Imōto
Brother:ani
Older brother:nīsan
Younger brother:Otōto

hm....thats a bit incomplete, but good enough.

Ack, whatever....

I was using the pronunciations of them becuase that’s the closest you can understand.
悪の Means evil, but it may mean something else to you.

No, that means evil....you cant change that....

I actually chose that name for an oc of mine.

Cool

I love this group hug

Me too, nya!

So you're a neko now? *pats head*

No, but I do have a neko oc, itoko.

Also I just like saying that becuase it’s cute

*exhales*

*inhales*

*inhales so you can exhale*

*exhales so you can inhale*
Wow, oxygen.

I know, breathing it's crazy. It's like *inhale* and then you're all like *exhale* and then you're all like-
Breathing, man, it's crazy

Did you say that cuz of the vine-

Mayhaps

That gave me whiplash.

Hiragana is the sounding out one, right? Normally used for foreign words?

No, thats katakana. Hirigana is the standard.

Ooooh *nods*
Sure!
((Fun factoid: I used to have a Ramen dictionary, but IDK where it went))

And kanji is used for lots of reasons....but, anyways, you want to learn hiragana? Grandpa is still teaching me kanji....

I'm sorry

's okai.

*smiles* Hug?

...alright....

*hugs* Do you feel better?

Does it even matter?

Kanji is hard. Take it from a guy learning Mandarin (they're different but are slightly the same. Hanzi is always on syllable but Kanji isn't necessarily one syllable. That's why I like it better, because there's so many Hanzi that are the same oh my gosh-). But yeah, sure!

Kanji evolved FROM Mandarin, I think...I do know a few words though....

Of course it matters! Your happiness and feelings matters as much as anyone else's!

No really, no....

Really? Try!

Try what?

*pout*
*hugs tighter*
Well if it doesn't matter to you, it matters to me!

*pats your head* ...why you gotta be so cute? Youre Ao and Im Aka.

*accepts le pat*
I don't see what makes me cute...

I dont know either. You just are.

Try making a sentence!

Wh-which language....?

*blushes* A-arigatou, Neesan...

Arigato-gozamas. You got to be polite, otouto.

Mandarin!

O-oh I couldn't....I dont know how....

Arigatou-gozamas, neesan! *snuggle*

*blushes* A-ah-!

Oh... that's okay, what words do you know?

Just the curse words....and even then, not all of them.

*stops* K-komendasai! Neesan!

Th-thats no correct...the ko has tempted on it...which changes the sound....a-and its okai....

HOLD UP-
There's curse words?!

You've never learned the language if you've never learned the curses

Um, yeah...I also know all the curses in Japanese....

You think so?

Oh yeah!

It's kind of a meme, but it's kind of true also

*thinks for a second* "Gomendasai"?

*nods and gets a small smile* Haha, yeah.

*smiles* I can speak Ramen!

*smiles a bit more* Why you gotta be so cute? And, you can speak it pretty well. Or well, the romaji at least....you want me to teach you hiragana? Im still learning katakana and kanji....

God I want to join this so much but that would probably be jerkish.

Get in here! *pulls you into the hug*

I’ll be your murasaki!
*Jappy noise*

Aw, come here Mura.

I can imagine it and i’m gonna die of cuteness

We’re reunited!

?

Why cant I.

Do you want to hear why I really dont want you to do it, or do you want me to give you actual reasons?

Either or.

Well, I'll give you both, I guess....

First one is actual reasons though....
1. Thats not the answer. Pretty soon, youre going to want to go deeper, cut more, hurt yourself more, and then its just...a downwards spiral thats easy to slip on.
2. What if you accidentally kill yourself? Id hate to see that happen....I know Cheez would too.
3. Youre too god for that, youre better than that. You dont deserve to treat yourself so horribly.

Why I really dont want to see you do it?

Its not fair. I cant yet youre still doing it....its really selfish, I know, but I cant do it, so I dont want you to do it either....mayeb thats why I hate suicide so much....I tried...so many times....yet for some people it works on the first shot...its not fair!

I'm sorry I'm a disappointment.

What?! no! No! Dont say that! Don't you dare! Youre not a disappointment. Why would you even think that?!

Dont talk bad about yourself. I do it all the time, and...it makes sense to say that about yourself, but....dont....please dont.

I'm sorry.

No, I'M sorry....I should want you to get better for genuine reasons, not my selfish BS....im sorry.

Why should I not be sorry.

Becuase...youre just trying to cope with everything....theres nothing wrong with that...

There's nothing wrong with trying to cope with the pain
There's nothing wrong with not wanting to get hurt
But there are better ways to cope than hurting yourself even further
Because they don't heal you, they hurt you even farther
Inside as well as out

We just want to help you help yourself

It won't help much.

That dosnt mean we wont still try...

Could you guys like- just enjoy the meme for once? Not to be rude but its annoying.

Yeah, sorry...

Oh, never knew that-

But still, if we stop trying whenever we fail once, we wouldn't have gotten anything accomplished by now

Just....just shut up for once. Enjoy the meme. Just....just for once, okai?

Okay

It'll help you, trust me

No it really wont.

How do you know? You won't even try

I did try

Well try again.

If Thomas Edison stopped at the first try we wouldn't have lightbulbs by now

He actually stole almost everything he 'invented' so-

I have been trying. It took Thomas Edison about 2 years to develop a working lightbulb. I have had suicidal thoughts for 8 years now.

How do you know it won't help if you haven't tried yet?

Because I tried to stay clean. I had more depressive and anxiety attacks and I was more violent and irrational.

Because you had nobody to help you

We're here, we can help you

No. I had my freind

Only that one friend?

Please, we can do this

No