Well, if it helps, I can help tutor you, cuz bio is one of my best subjects.
And, you wouldnt be better dead, thats just...no. And, you can make dreams go away, you just need to deal with the roots. All me everything that happens in all the, I'll do some research, and then I can help you get rid of them.
Dont think that you should be better dead, thats...no, that makes me a bit sad to her that from you...and, dont cut of ties with friends, they can support you and help you a lot more, trust me.