You be glad your life is better.

You know....
Now that I think about it...
I'm really blessed...
I have a good home
Good family
Good school
Good friends
...
But why can't I do it?
Why can't I control my anger?
I get angry at people
I want to hurt people
I want to hurt myself
I want to...
end people...
I try to be perfect, but I know I can't
I'm stupid, I do stupid things all the time
I wanna punish myself for doing dumb mistakes...
But I can't...
I'm afraid of pain
Of death
Of not being accepted...
Which is weird... because some people are afraid of me
I'm big, loud, and violent when I am
I hate it...
Why can't I just be given a normal brain?
A normal ego?
Why do I think so many selfish things?
I have so many problems with myself...
I wish I could split my personality into bits and clean up the mess...

I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said all this...
All of you guys... your problems are worse....
I don't deserve to share them
I'm nothing compared to you...

Don't say that mate. Don't try to be perfect, be the best you that you can be. Everybody has problems they got to solve. Just because the things we went through maybe worse doesn't make your problems any less value. Do i have to get out the Love-Yourself-AK47 out?

My mom was 15 when she had me, and my dad was 16.
I was born out of wedlock. This made me feel that when I die i'm going to hell, and this made scared of dying. Which also made me scared of almost everything.
My mom, and dad always used to argue, and my dad used to.... do things to my mom.
I think my Parents divorced in 2010, so my mom was left without a partner, and me and my siblings was left without a father figure for 8 F**kING years.
In 2016, he stayed at his parents house so he could see us, but the he left a F**KING again to Florida. And this time he said that he was gonna come back but never did! He met this women who said he wanted to marry, and she had kids who lived in New Jersey. He had the F**king audacity to go to New jersey and get some kids he didn't even knew than to get us!
So in 2018 WE met our future Stepdad, and I didn't want my Mom to marry anybody else but my dad. but then she told me why they divorced; Because my dad used to beat her.
We went to meet my dad's "future wife", and she was cool. However, things went downhill.I remember we were about to go to the pool but they started arguing. Then I heard loud yelling, pushing, and crying. my little sister was crying so bad the next day it gave her a headache.
Over the summer I've notice them go into their room, and start yelling at each other.
That was one of my least favorite summers. This Thanksgiving, he said that we should've been with him with thanksgiving. My mom says as log as were under her roof, were never going to visit my dad again.

Oh god.

If i'm really honest i wish my parents never had me. So I wouldn't have to deal with this shit.

So I guess i’ll go back in time and knock out one of them with a bat, ay?

Even though they made some stupid choices, I still love them. Thanks but no thanks Sonic

I feel bad for you.

(I hope I don't) But i think i suffer from something called Depersonalization/DeRealization Disorder

I felt that. I tend to dissociate, have People pleaser syndrome and Imposter syndrome (to name a few) dont get me started on the other things I got...

Sorry you have to go through that mate, I hope you get the help you need.

Ah... I mean, Im not, but.... thanks.

(I hope I don't) But i think i suffer from something called Soplisim syndrome, because sometimes I feel like anybody exist but me. Also, whenever my parents start arguing I start panicking because i'm afraid that they are gonna divorce, and My Moms gonna be alone again.

Im sure she wouldnt want you to worry about her.

I know that......But when my parents start arguing I can't think straight, and I try to get my mind off it cuz' I tend to think scary thoughts.

Why do the disorders have to exist just to make us suffer? WHY?!

I have no idea. My guess is that the devil uses his demons to mess up your brain.((I'm really religious))

Yeah, Get PTSD when someone turns the lights off.... its gets scary. I feel you.

Mono are you Religious?

Um, kinda, yeah.

When I was in Middle school they used to always say how my skin "looked like coca-cola", one of the people I thought was my friend said that if i wore dark clothes, everybody would think I was naked. A girl that I liked said that if I was in a dark room, the only people would see me was my yellow teeth. Even one of my closet friends said that i'm the reason why my dad left my family. Even now it makes me so angry, and sad that I barely had any friends in middle school, and if i did nobody would do nor say anything to stand up to me.

I know a girl that's been bullied her whole life and even raped for her skin color
Damn skin colors...

Is she ok?!?

She is
The worst part is that the last part happened when she was in elementary

Is she though?

She is

But it's such a shame... She's so nice and kind...

Really? You think that? Well... I hope shes happy too.

Yeah, I really do...
What happened to her.. It was horrible
It was so f**ked up....
Every day...
By a HIGH SCHOOLER
I sometimes I just wanna find the guy who did it punch him in the face or teleport to her and hug her while telling her it's going to be okay
Or both

Jesus is lord..........
I pray to god she's ok...

Im sorry......

Sorry if you can't read it, this shits been eating at me ever since I've started thinking about my family

I don’t want to say too much because you’ll hate me for it.
But I have a personality disorder.
I’ve never been able to have true dairy and true wheat my whole life.
I got a concussion when I was 5, and the procedure was the worst pain I ever felt.
I only have 1 living grandpa. The other died before I existed.
I’m very lonely at home. (I need my long lost sibling back.)
People don’t treat yanderes like they should.
My school is pure crap.
I have PTSD.
I already know what i’m gonna experience in high school.
I’m sensitive to loud sounds
And now the biggest issue of all.
Youtube.
People have made lots of bad videos of me..
I’ve witnessed 2 online deaths.
And 2 near online deaths.
AND A NEAR REAL LIFE DEATH!
Coppa has ruined my life.
If youtube shuts down my life would be worthless.
I can do nothing but watch as my friends suffer.
Just don’t hate me if I tell you what disorder it is.

I wont hate you for it. I promise.

If it makes you feel better, i could give you the full list of the shit that's happen in my life

Okay??

It's gonna be a lot, just to let you know.

... do you have disassociative identity disorder? (split personalities?)

Yes, I wont hate you for it. I promise.

I still don’t want to tell because my type is kinda hated.

Just tell me.... if Im right, I think we have more in common than we first thought.

Its not sending.... I wont hate you

Well, I’ll get you time to figure it out....

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Also this meme above is very offensive to me.

Oh.... do you have autism and a personality disorder?
If it makes you feel more conftorble, I can share something too.

Yes, i’m actually autistic.

How severe, if you dont mind me asking.

@-@

Oh a question?
I don’t know.

Do you have spilt personalities?