I am easing back in.

But I tend to have panic attacks when I get my heart rate up. There was nothing discovered MEDICALLY wrong with me. I have seen a cardiologist and did the EKG and stress test blah blah blah. But I have a MENTAL stumbling block that makes me panic. I am working on that.

I accidentally deleted your comment above! UGH... SORRY! Here is the answer to what you asked!

I don't know why I do this to myself. But I think it's important to recognize that it is just me doing this to myself. I haven't had any kind of accident. And I can trace it back to the EXACT DAY THAT THIS BEGAN. I tend to be anxious about all kind of things, my health being one of those things. I obsessively check my pulse, my blood pressure, by blood sugar. (I am not diabetic.. yet... here I am with a monitor..) Anyhoo.. For some reason that day I felt as I was obsessively monitoring my pulse after some moderate exercise, that a panic hit me, I suddenly thought my heart was racing (it wasn't before I panicked, I know because I had a fitness gadget with the heart rate display..) But in my mind I was checking my heart rate and thinking it was going to kill me. And then my heart WAS racing. I actually went to urgent care. They said it was sinus tachycardia which was caused by the panic attack. I saw a cardiologist and he could find not a thing wrong with me.

Have you ever felt your mind pull you into a panic? I can always feel that happening. So that's that. Just my getting into my own head!

Getting in my own head is something I do a lot, but I don't get panic attacks brassier of it.... You said you used to run 4 miles so maybe start off small. Walk a half a mile, and then eventually ease up into running and add distance. Maybe a slower process would be better?

I am getting my knee back to working order as we speak. My walks have to definitely be short. I still have days where walking around in the grocery store is a little bothersome. So I am working on strengthening and regaining full use. Not sure if my knee will ever bee back to 100%, so running may be out as it is a strain. But I live in a neighborhood full of hills, so walking may be just as much work.

Well I hope your knee gets better, and that your panic attacks do too! ☺

Thanks! I can walk on the thing now. There was a time it caused me considerable pain! Care to know what caused it? PACING THE FLOOR! When on the phone I pace the floor. The turning to go back the other way puts a slight twist on the knee. Over time this accumulates considerable damage and ruins the knee. So I stopped pacing the floor, and when I am standing in place I also stopped the swaying side to side. Because that was also a stress on the knee. Now I do not have the pain I once did, and I can do more walking without it hurting so much. Last year we took the kids trick-or-treating on Halloween, and for the first time ever I was dragging behind a good 50 ft. I am usually the one in front. So this year I should be able to keep up. LOL

oof well again I hope your knee gets all the way healed up, even more than it is now!

For the last couple of months I've been trying to get into a fitness routine. I go for a brisk walk everyday. The fresh air does me good and it gets my muscles moving as well.
If your worried about obsessively measuring your pulse maybe investing in a fit-bit would be good idea. It tracks your movements throughout the day, measures your pulse and sleeping patterns and gives you a gentle nudge if your sitting idle for too long.

Yeah, I tossed my fitness tracker because I obsessed over it all day and night. It affected my sleep because I was checking it all during the night. Everything I did was punctuated with looking to see what it was tracking. It was terrible. I almost bought another one not long ago. I decided against it and just went with a pedometer. I stick it in my pocket and it counts steps and I know how far I have gone. It's accurate and doesn't keep me in a mental state. LOL

I've been trying to get motivated to start jogging again but I cannot seem to make it happen :/

You just need a plan. What time of day would you prefer? If you're not broke go buy some good running shoes and the like. Get you butt up and hit the pavement!

Have you tried excercise that's not to strenuous but still tones your muscles like yoga or pilates? They are meant to calm you.

I despise Pilates. I have done yoga to a great extent, as well as tai chi and qi gong, though in the past few years I have been largely inactive on all fronts. A few turn of events in life just put exercise in the back of he heap.

I hear ya. I always find swimming relaxing.

I am terrified of the water! If it comes above my waist I am afraid to go in! I have an envy for people who can swim!

Awww :(

I was 11 years old. My aunt and Uncle had a pool and regularly invited us over. One day we were not swimming because the pool was dirty. I had the net and was scooping pine straw out of the water when my young cousin came along and pushed me in! I thought I was a goner!

Man, a fine thank you for cleaning their pool! Who came to your rescue? I'm never going allow a pool on any property weer love on on account of all the horror stories if heard. My 4 year old fell into a pool just this summer and I had to dive in after him. Lucky I was standing nearby. And he didn't seem traumatized by it. I'm sorry you had a bad experience.

Well, my older brother attempted but I guess I was dragging him under. So Aunt ( the mother of the kid who pushed me in) saved us both.

Have you ever gone to youtube and watched the videos where try to spot the drowning person? They all get saved by a life guard, so it isn't a faces of death type of thing. You would be surprised at how hard it is to spot a drowning person.

Yes because it might seem like playing to the untrained eye. So glad your aunt came to the rescue. I hope you at least got an ice cream or something after that ordeal.

Nope. I mean, they asked if I was okay. As soon as I was done gasping for air everyone went back to their business.

At an apartment we lived in my husband had our kids at the pool, and there was a neglectful set of parents who allowed their 2 year old to wander away, and into the pool. That child was AT THE BOTTOM of the pool! I think he lived, but geesh! Keep an eye on you baby!

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