Haha I'm going to ramble so you don't have to read this.   But I've been dealing with some stuff,  a lot if stuff fun fact.... I'm always sad,  usually quite lonely,  and I feel like I want to give up and nothing's that I ever do is or will get be the right thing to do....and whenever I feel like that I watch one of marks old videos called "watch this when you're feeling down" and I cry because I feel like for once someone actually understands something..... IDK marks always been there to make me feel better,  and he's the absolute best,  and I know this sounds weird,  but it's true.