*deep breath* okay I know, I understand the whole concept of hell, and heaven, and Jesus, and life, and death. I was a Christian for quite a while. I was raised in a church, I memorized verses, and read the Biblez and prayed. And the whole time my life was falling apart. I was being hurt and my family was slowly being torn apart. So I prayed and I read, and I tried SO hard. Nothing ever happened, and at the time where it seemed nothing could get worse one of the people closest to me stopped believing, and for years the church bashed them, and calls them a disgrace. Soon I began to feel that why and I tried to get them to read an spray with us..... All that ends sup happening is that Iost my faith because I listened to what they had to say. It's my choice, just let me believe what I want..... I don't discredit religion, nor don't say there's anything wrong with it, or what they believe. I just want what I believe to be respected....pelase don't hate me for that... I'm sorry...