MY LIFE HAS BEEN ON A DOWNWARD SPIRAL FOR SEVERAL YEARS...DESERTED BY MY FRIENDS, A BURDEN TO MY FAMILY AND A FAILURE AS A FATHER AND A WRITER... ...I'M AT A POINT WHERE I'M ALONE, JOBLESS, DEPRESSED, ABOUT TO LOSE EVERYTHING AND I FEEL WORTHLESS...I WISH I WOULD FALL ASLEEP ONE NIGHT AND NEVER WAKE UP.