Octavia, the bottom line is that this is a meme-making site. That's all it is. It’s not a forum or an internet chat room. I see no cause to spill out my entire belief system on a meme-making site just because I’m trying to raise awareness as to what I believe is true. Surely you have Christian friends/acquaintances that could satisfy your queries just as well.
If you "looked into" the moon landing hoax, et al, and came away with the belief that it wasn't faked, I can't help you, anyway. You either didn’t investigate enough or you’re resistant to painful truth. Either way, that is cognitive dissonance on a level that I can’t relate with.
No one "discovered" that the Earth is a ball. Ancient Greece (presumably) had no telescopes, they had no "space craft," they had no satellites, they had no (fake) ISS, they had no rockets, they had no astro-nots, they had no nothing! But they “discovered” the Earth was a ball? With two sticks in the ground and the setting sun?!? Are you hearing yourself?
Your first and most crippling hindrance is the fact that you’ve essentially thrown God out with the bath water. He “doesn’t exist,” so we’ll skip right past that little hiccup and march forward to find the “truth.” But shut God out and you shut out the Truth. Conversely, I have nothing more to offer any human than my love for Him and His Son, Jesus Christ, and the peace, joy, and Truth that they bring to my life. They grant me hope, healing, and restoration of my soul (let alone the promise of eternal life), and this is something I experience on a daily basis. The critical issue is not *what* I believe; it’s *why* I believe it. And this is why I believe it. Jesus said, “I am the WAY, the TRUTH, and the LIFE.” He promises rest for those who come to Him and trade their heavy burdens for his “easy yoke.” (Matt. 6:26-28) God promises His children protection, refuge, and victory against the dark forces and weapons of Satan. I have found this to be true; hence my belief system.
You might better profit by researching other agnostics, atheists, or outright Satanists who turned their lives to Christ in order to understand “what I believe.” The issue of ultimate importance, however, is not what one believes. The only thing that matters when the game’s up is the actual TRUTH; and that is what one should be seeking.