Oooooooooh, ouch. I can't really say either or, cuz I don't personally know either of you, that being said, in my experiences,....... f**k, tough call, lotsa questions,......shit, welll, how do you feel, sometimes you havta make a leap and try something dangerous, one of those grande gesture thingys. I know life aint like a rom-com, but isn't it? I bin on both sides bud so I feel for ya. You don't get to be mid 40's without a few battle wounds. Best of luck, and I'll support the best I can.