Yessir, I was quite the screw up during my brief tenure aboard the USS Toledo SSN 769 back in March/April 1998. It got to the point where I was ostracized by the crew and nearly drove me to total insanity and suicide. That was, by far, the worst time of my life. But hey, I asked for it. I was the one who joined the U.S. Navy. I was the one who volunteered for submarine service. I was the one who wanted to be a big hero.