First World Problems

I TOLD MYSELF I DIDN'T NEED HIS ADORATION, JUST HIS LOVE...THEN I SAID "I DON'T NEED YOUR LOVE, JUST YOUR FRIENDSHIP." I FINALLY RELENTED, I DON'T NEED YOUR FRIENDSHIP JUST YOUR RESPECT... NEVER MIND....YOU ACTUALLY HATE ME BECAUSE I CAN FEEL...SO YOU CANNOT GIVE ME ANY OF MY DESIRES AND I'VE DECIDED THAT I WANT THEM ALL. IT'S THIS HARD TRUTH AND NO CONTACT WHICH HELPS ME TO HEAL...ONE HOUR AT A TIME