You're a mom -- the mom of a dead child. Sentient or not, your child was and is human, and therefore greater than the animals and lower than the angels. At least your child is in Heaven, but from the gist of your words, you don't even have a normal, unsaved person's conscience. So, too bad for you, you won't ever see your aborted child again, after you die too. That is, unless you believe in Jesus' name. Your child was too young to have time to sin, but you don't even have the usual "at least i never killed anybody" distraction from lesser sins. I need Jesus' forgiveness too. But, i have what i need. "{16} For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. {17} For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. {18} He that believeth on him is not condemned: but he that believeth not is condemned already, because he hath not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. {19} And this is the condemnation, that light is come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. {20} For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. {21} But he that doeth truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God." - John 3:16-21 KJV