For the life of me, I cannot find a substitute cure for horniness. I know of only one. I hear from a lot of people that we should stop masturbating and having sex outside of marriage but I can't stop. I'm not much of a drinker, I don't smoke cigarettes except once in a while. I do smoke pot everyday, but nowhere near what I was. I sometimes give it up for a few months... I'm gearing up to do that again, hopefully permanently.
But I think lust is with me for good. I'm never going to get married, I don't like dating women I'm not physically attracted to. I NEED to nut. I've paid for sex several times, and I'm considering doing it again. The last woman I had sex with CANNOT be the LAST WOMAN I HAD SEX WITH. If the world is ending soon, I can't go out like that.
I'm trying to go to Church. I really don't wanna confess what an asshole I've been. I know if I leave out stuff, it won't count. And if I do start going back to Church, I'd would have to confess every week. You can't take communion without confessing mortal sins. I was doing exactly that for months from October to April, taking communion without confessing. No wonder going to Church didn't work.
Thanks for listening to my Ted Talk.
