Life just dosent feel that fun anymore. My mental health is already fucked up. Everytime I get into drama I feel bad because I love you all. I don't wanna mentally hurt anyone, I just have anger and depression issues. Sometimes I get pissed off and in all reality, I just wanna be that one friend who just makes everyone laugh. It's just it hurts to see you all angry at me because I'm "annoying". Some people just want to bully me to appear "based". I don't truly hate on people. There are a few exceptions but.. it's just that, the general thing I want to point out is i care about you guys and I treat you guys like family. I just really care about you all... no matter how angry I get. In all reality, I wanna be friends with everyone on earth or atleast on here. I joined here at first for fame, but then I realized the reason social media was even made is to make friends and share your experiences. Not to look cool or show stuff off, but to connect with others. The pandemic lockdowns really screwed me up and now I can't talk to irl people anymore. I can't change because I'm scared of altering myself.