I agree with "MothTheProtogen 0 ups, 3h
Well, I personally don't hate you. However, the fact that you'd think like that is concerning. If this site is making you feel like you're some monster then you should leave. You deserve to be happy, and it seems this site is bringing you down. Perhaps don't delete, just go inactive a bit. Come back when you feel better. Gotta take care of yourself man."